Thursday, November 20, 2014
Tuesday night was a really emotional night for many of us. After choir practice I went home and sat in my room, deep in thoughts of the sudden demise of M's husband. Each time when things like this happen, it makes me want to hug the ones I love a little tighter, to put aside any sort of awkwardness and say "I love you" just so they know.
"But you were still here in the morning..."
I knew we were all emotionally affected after the announcement by what we shared. The real stuffs from the bottom of our hearts we'd rather stash away at a corner and not talk about it. That we are selfish beings. And if given a chance we'd want to "go first" before our partners, because we don't think we can deal with the emotional distress and grief. We sat there, imagining and talking about how it must have felt.
"You were lying beside me the night before. We had breakfast together before sending our daughter to school in the morning. I kissed you goodbye before you left for work, and you hugged me and said "I love you". Then in the evening you suddenly collapsed and you're gone... forever. I'd never get to hear your voice again. I'd never get to hug you and tell you how much I love you. I'd never be able to have a meal with you, go to sleep knowing you're right next to me, and share with you about our girl's school results. We'd never get to go on the trips we planned, and have you see our darling growing up. There's so much more left undone... I wish you're still here..."
It's not going to be a easy journey dealing with the loss, and we could only pray that the shalom peace of Jesus will heal and mend the hurting hearts of the family. That He has His way of restoring the joy and loss to the family, and that their needs will be taken care of. As for us... let's not take each day for granted. Let's not neglect or forget to be there for our loved ones too. Give them a hug. Buy them their favorite food to surprise them. Take some time out to have a meal with them. Sit down with them and ask them to share about how they've been. Tell them we love them while we still can, and actively claim the promise of Psalm 91 daily over our families and loved ones. I think it's the least we could do and we shouldn't wait for tomorrow. Today is a good day to start.